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Feb. 27th, 2025 12:15 pmhowdy. back again with some bloggin' and postin'
learning to cook has been going good. been making soups, dips, and more fish cakes. a "friend" has offered to help teach me to cook, which will be a lovely time.
CATWYRM
im thinking of transitioning catwyrm from neocities to nekoweb, exclusively because neocities suppresses nsfw sites. when neocities itself added the 18+ button and stated it would be hidden from the main search but added to a special search function, i was happy! happy for it to be openly acknowledged and given its own space! ....but there is no special seperate nsfw search. there hasnt been for years. i dont think its happening...
this means all sites marked as 18+ are suppressed entirely with no way to be discovered unless directly linked to. indefinitely.
meanwhile, nekoweb allows nsfw content entirely and openly so long as it is clearly marked as such and the landing page of a site is SFW.
this didnt bother me for a long time, but lately the frustration at being suppressed has eaten at me. especially because catwyrm is 99%
nonsexual! i just talk about sex sometimes! god forbid!
mento health
had a weird moment in therapy today where my therapist gently asked if i was ready to start lessening how often i see her. and here i was thinking i needed to see her more! i feel like i have so much childhood trauma to work through, i guess? she pointed out some people work better leaving old wounds alone and moving on. i dunno, we're gonna poke at it a bit next time. i guess in her defense, i do seem to be fine on my own... every time i come in im like "yeah, i had this crisis situation, but i handled it myself, and it was easier than it was the last time i had a similar issue. my depression and anxiety are both lessening as time goes on and i gather new coping mechanisms and adjust my mindset. even the agoraphobia and car anxiety that were ruining my life earlier are more like, background thoughts? and now im just fine with the fact that im gonna be driving 8 total hours to another city to talk to a gender surgeon?"
shes probably like damn my work here is done this dude is fine. and maybe i am? i dont know! i think i need back on antidepressants before i say im fine tho
gender
yes, speaking of which, my consultation for top surgery is in exactly one week. i will be driving 4 hours to another city, having the consult, then i will be driving back home the same day. i have a list of questions made up, and im going to be printing them out soon so i can take notes and not forget any information. you are free to look at my list of questions here.
well, see ya. i will be working in the background to do the nekoweb swap. later today that same friend mentioned earlier coming over. if we are lucky, the rain will not be so bad and we will get to go to the creek. as long as we arent sopping wet im fine with however muddy it is out there!
learning to cook has been going good. been making soups, dips, and more fish cakes. a "friend" has offered to help teach me to cook, which will be a lovely time.
CATWYRM
im thinking of transitioning catwyrm from neocities to nekoweb, exclusively because neocities suppresses nsfw sites. when neocities itself added the 18+ button and stated it would be hidden from the main search but added to a special search function, i was happy! happy for it to be openly acknowledged and given its own space! ....but there is no special seperate nsfw search. there hasnt been for years. i dont think its happening...
this means all sites marked as 18+ are suppressed entirely with no way to be discovered unless directly linked to. indefinitely.
meanwhile, nekoweb allows nsfw content entirely and openly so long as it is clearly marked as such and the landing page of a site is SFW.
this didnt bother me for a long time, but lately the frustration at being suppressed has eaten at me. especially because catwyrm is 99%
nonsexual! i just talk about sex sometimes! god forbid!
mento health
had a weird moment in therapy today where my therapist gently asked if i was ready to start lessening how often i see her. and here i was thinking i needed to see her more! i feel like i have so much childhood trauma to work through, i guess? she pointed out some people work better leaving old wounds alone and moving on. i dunno, we're gonna poke at it a bit next time. i guess in her defense, i do seem to be fine on my own... every time i come in im like "yeah, i had this crisis situation, but i handled it myself, and it was easier than it was the last time i had a similar issue. my depression and anxiety are both lessening as time goes on and i gather new coping mechanisms and adjust my mindset. even the agoraphobia and car anxiety that were ruining my life earlier are more like, background thoughts? and now im just fine with the fact that im gonna be driving 8 total hours to another city to talk to a gender surgeon?"
shes probably like damn my work here is done this dude is fine. and maybe i am? i dont know! i think i need back on antidepressants before i say im fine tho
gender
yes, speaking of which, my consultation for top surgery is in exactly one week. i will be driving 4 hours to another city, having the consult, then i will be driving back home the same day. i have a list of questions made up, and im going to be printing them out soon so i can take notes and not forget any information. you are free to look at my list of questions here.
well, see ya. i will be working in the background to do the nekoweb swap. later today that same friend mentioned earlier coming over. if we are lucky, the rain will not be so bad and we will get to go to the creek. as long as we arent sopping wet im fine with however muddy it is out there!
